OK, I donīt know how long this will be, but Iīll tell you about things that have happened in my life and how I in my late teenage discovered my destiny, to be a Godlover, a follower of The Lord Jesus.Before I turned my life to God I was a normal teenager with normal teenagerish habits, hobbies, likes and dislikes. I didnīt have a clue about what "Christianity" was all about. Neither did I know any Christians, except my very dear grandma Ragnhild of course. From when I was a little child I used to spend the summers with her (she lived 220 miles south of dad, mom and me), and I knew for sure that SHE was a Christian, the only one I had ever met. Iīll tell you more about our relation soon. First, I wanted to say that I was a "normal" teenager, and didnīt know (or care) about living for God or the one He sent, Jesus. I just wanted to have a nice life, like everyone else did. I was good at sports AND in the schoolwork, so my first schoolyears were quite edifying and I actually LIKED to study and learn about new things. Yea, I was a real good boy! The teachers liked me SO much (well, most of them). School was more than OK all the way up to 9th grade (15 y.o.) I had begun to love working out with weights and build my body + strenght. When I started out at 11 (in a very small gym), there was a young man who taught me the ABCīs of olympic lifts which I liked a lot (still do). I never went into competing though, but had competitions with myself all the time: 115 kilo (255 lbs) in the clean&jerk, and 85 (190) in the snatch. At 15, while still in grade 9, I had a goal of reaching 100 kilos (close to 220lbs) in benchpress, but failed by 2.5 kg (5.5 lbs) . But I was pretty pleased anyhow, I had done my best. Today (2005), at age 41, my personal best is 170 kilos (~373 lbs) and climbing. :-)
Teenagers in Sweden starts partying with alcohol at around 14 years of age, and I was no exception. Yes, it was really FUN many times (not always, but I was that kind of guy who could "handle" my drinking. There were a few times when I had too much, but usually my buddies tried to make me drink more all the time because I drank quite moderately. But they didnīt succeed.) Alcohol has its positive sides, but the negative and destructive sides are FAR too many. If it wasnīt for alcohol, MANY youngsters would for example never wind up in narcotics of different kinds. After 5 years of partying with alcohol (beer, booze, wine) every now and then (1-3 times a month) I made a decision to quit using it at all. Boycott! This was when I had decided to actually BECOME a Christian, a follower of the remarkable man who called himself the Way, the Truth and the Life! But as a matter of fact, I CONTINUED drinking once in a while even after I had chosen to become a follower of The Lord. So then, why did I finally quit drinking/partying? Nobody told me when I had become a Christian, "You shouldnīt use alcohol now that youīre a Christian." BUT, after a few months, how can I explain it..., something CHANGED on the inside of me, and my whole will started to turn AGAINST using alcohol. WHO influenced me? The Spirit of God did. Yes, GOD came with His transforming power and: I changed. On the inside. Nobody had to tell me. I just knew that I knew: Iīm AGAINST the use of alcohol. I will have nothing to do with that crap! The Bible isn't totally against drinking alcohol, but my decision was to abstain. Still is.
Get yourself exposed to the Word of God (listen or read for yourself), and HE will change what needs to be changed inside of you. There is a GREAT truth in that! THE WORD OF GOD WILL ACTUALLY START A CHAIN-REACTION WITHIN YOU! Either youīll turn away from it completely (or for a time), or youīll get heartily and enthusiastically in love with God. And the chain-reaction doesnīt stop with that. No, youīll continue to change and form into the man or woman God has created you to be. HE is the potter and we are the clay. God is a gentleman and will never force Himself on you, Heīs waiting for YOU to open the door of your heart, the door to your most holy and personal place, and THEN He will come in. Well, are you getting something out of this?
OK, Grandma Ragnhild now..... As long as I can remember, she has been a part of my life (she died Dec 1st, 2002), and with deep gratitude to The Lord I acknowledge her godly impact on me. My memories of the time we spent together in my childhood and preteens are filled with cosy feelings of "grandma-care", hospitality, security and (not to forget) her most delicious cooked dinners with goodies afterwards (sometimes not only afterwards...well, quite frequently actually! (o: Granny Ragnhild often opened up the Bible and read for her little grandson, who thoroughly enjoyed listening to the adventures of David, how he with Godīs help defeated the giant Goliath. I loved to hear about Daniel in the lionsī den, where God delievered him from being eaten alive! The three men in the fiery furnace also made an impact on me, as little as I was. My memory is clear about how EAGER I was to listen to these and other stories over and over again. You know, the way to have faith sowed into your heart, is to LISTEN to it, whether youīre young or old, and the way to have faith GROW in you, is to LISTEN to it. Simple, isnīt it? So I listened and listened to the life-changing Word of God already as a little boy, and that sure made an impact on me. Grandma many times prayed together with me, and for me, and that developed my faith in God and The Lord Jesus even more. I can recall how we both were in prayer for our relatives and family, and nation and government, and after having prayed a while we both went to sleep. I was 5-6 years old at the time. What I also remember is my relation to God in Heaven when I was back home in Svappavaara, the little village 220 miles north of grandmaīs place. God gave me a feeling of security and comfort in situations when a little boy could be afraid, such as walking over a big and desolate meadow with (in darkness) strange-looking trees and bushes... I really felt peace and security come upon me. Thank You Lord, for those times!
To become a follower of Jesus, a Christian.After I had decided what to do with my life, I came in contact with a young man from the Pentecostal church in Kiruna. He showed us (me and a friend who also wanted to follow Jesus) what the Bible said about it. We discovered that after you receive The Lord you are supposed to be baptized in water. Well, I knew that I had water poured onto my head as an infant, what some call "baptism", but itīs not. Baptism is when you are fully lowered under water. From the Word of God we can understand that the baptism is to take place when somebody HAS RECEIVED Jesus in their heart and decided to follow Him.Jesus says: "Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation. Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned." Mark.16:15-16 Since I fully trust the Bible as GODīS WORD, I made the decision to be baptized. (Just to be really sure, I called grandma and told her about it, and asked if she thought it was the right thing to do. Needless to say, grandma was happy to find out about my thoughts and encouraged me to go right ahead. It was definitely the right step! Grandmas, they know the truth, donīt they? : ) So, step no.1: I believed that Jesus was the Lord and Savior, and wanted to follow Him. Step no.2: I was baptized in water in the name of The Lord Jesus Christ. (Read Matt.28:18-19 and Acts 2:37-38 + 8:12 + 10:44-48 + 16:30-34 + 19:1-5 as well as Col.3:17, and let God's Spirit show you His Truth, if you're having problems with what name we're supposed to baptize in.) Baptism is a confirmation of what has already taken place in your heart; you have died with Christ AND been resurrected WITH Christ. It is also a proclamation outwardly, of the decision youīve taken, as well as a demonstration to the unseen world, principalities and powers, of Whose possession you now have become! You belong to The Lord Jesus!
At that time, it was 1983 and I was 19. As I mentioned earlier, I didnīt become a consecrated/dedicated Christian until about 1 ― year later... There were still some obstacles in me that hindered me to live wholeheartedly for God, and it took some time before I was ready to let The Lord deal with it. That began to happen in the summer of 1984, when I went to listen to some faith-preaching, bible-believing, HolyGhost-driven, Godloving preachers in Piteå, Sweden. They were just there for summer campmeetings and I happened to attend some of the services. The Lord sure changed me that summer! I realized that I could not go on living a half-dedicated, non-sacrificing kind of Christian life; I just had to GIVE HIM MY ALL! All 4 Him! In 1985 I went to a Bible school for a year and then started to serve in church, in worship, prayer and teaching. If you want to contact me, here's my address: all4Him@hotmail.com.
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